Here are all my Christmas supplies, pulled out to make Cards. (And also a cat.) I have to clear them off the dining room table tonight, so my husband can start wrapping presents. Given that tomorrow is Christmas Eve, I have to admit defeat on making Christmas cards this year. I have hand-made unique holiday cards for our close family and friends for years. I love doing it. But not this year.
My Mom died of cancer in October. This is the concrete manifestation of my grief — I am creatively shut down. I haven’t written a word or stamped a thing since she died. I just can’t.
I hate this. I realize I should give myself a break, losing your mom is a big deal. But not making Christmas cards feels like such a defeat, such a failure. I’m really upset about it. And no one can fix this for me, either. I just have to live with it.
So that’s why I haven’t posted in a while. Nothing to post.